Things haven't been going right again. Not that its much of a surprise...most of my life has been struggles. I have never gotten anything easily. (that was another blog entry)
Someone told me yesterday to have faith. I replied, faith has nothing to do with it. Nothing about faith has gotten me anything in the past. Faith doesnt work hard, pound the pavement or does the hard work.
This has bothered me a bit. I DO believe in a higher power. Not sure about all the rest. I have issues with organized religions and churches in general. I have been Buddhist longer than I have been both religions I was baptized into. Yet, faith still strikes me as a thin thread of all beliefs. It also eludes me as to wtf it means.
Faith...to believe that things will be better. But, faith in what? whom? when? where? Those are the questions I want answered.
I have faith... the only faith I have learned to believe in... faith in me. I have been the only person I can depend on. I have been the only person I can turn to when the cards are stacked against me. I am the only person who can change things for the better, and conversely make things worse.
So..have faith.....ok...to me that means....'GIT ER DUN'... and I have always been able to step up to the plate and deal... and change my OWN life.
I have faith... in ME.
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