I am all of these and none of these. There are times in your life that you come to an internal crossroad. It's not a physical thing, its a subconscious feeling that something needs to change. You can sense it, like a primal instinct that you need to change something. A few years ago, I had this similar feeling and figured it out to be graduate school. Right now, I cant put my finger on it, but I feel it building, yearning for something. I know I need to expand my horizons, get out and meet more people and explore more things; yet, at the same time, I feel I am having an internal conflict of needing to clean and organize something. The irony of this, I have already gone through almost everything in my apartment and minimized. I have already started to complete all the millions of little projects I have been putting off for years, and reading the last few chapters of about 10 different books. Sigh, its a beautiful day and I need to get out in it! Have a good one.

Where did three years go, and what have I been up to???

Since 2010 there has been a lot of changes in my life! I went back to graduate school in the fall of 2010, I now have my Masters in Counseling Psychology and am a registered Intern as a Marriage and Family Therapist in the state of California. Grad school was so challenging, filled with personal struggles, insight and triumphs over my own demons. The state of California requires a minimum of 25 hours of face to face individual therapy to be licensed. I found an awesome therapist and was able to get through some of the issues I have blogged about in the past. I no longer even think about my childhood issues and continue to work on my own thought stopping techniques daily. My children are now almost 17 (boy) and 15 (girl), things have been so crazy with two teenagers. I have been learning again about myself, my own childhood morals and ethics, and how to let go of some control and 'flow with it' more. I had no idea how difficult it is to raise a young lady in this world. I recently learned about the 'I hope your children are worse than you someday', thanks Mom :) It's all good, we are both still alive. I have been working at a clinic that gives me many hours towards my licensure, intensive and extensive exposure to all sorts of mental health diagnoses. I learn every day, love the challenge and am proud of myself to have finally found my niche in life... IN MY 40's!!!!!!! :) For those of you who have read the other postings, I still have my dog and my cat. We had a scare with my dog a few days ago; she almost died of toxicity due to a forgetful dog mommy leaving some macadamia nuts too low. She is well and back to her crazy-silly self :) It's amazing how animals worm their way into your heart and make you panic when they are ill just as you would with a human. That possibility of loss ran through my head and I quickly dismissed it! So, to the reason I have resurrected my blog. As I have mentioned, I work on myself daily and feel the need to get things off my head. I am not promising a daily effort, but I do want to get more out of my system. I find more humor and brightness in the world and want to share it with others. So, buckle your belts and lets start this road trip! :) Be Well.