My life so far...

I have lived a hard life. Never, have I had a break. Everything I have ever gotten was from hard work, struggle and sometimes pain. I don’t mind really, I know that nothing in life comes easy. I have learned, to value the place I have gotten to, the lessons learned and to live life guarded.

I have learned, that in order to survive, you must be guarded. Guarded against others trying to take what you have gained, goals you have achieved and things you have planned for the future. I like who I am now, I value the things I have learned.

I am an observer. I learn by watching others. I have learned lessons by watching the interactions others have endured around me.

Nothing I have achieved has come easily. I have struggled to live to the age of 18. I have struggled to attain two college degrees. I have struggled to be a great mom to my kids.

I am at a point in my life, that tests me daily. I am humbled. I know that everything I do, everywhere I work, every day I spend with my kids will build upon who I am to become.

I love life, though its been tough. I love the ability to enjoy a beautiful morning with a crisp wind. I have been able to sit, and let the rain fall on my face. I have learned that through patience, truth will envelope reality.

I have been abused, mentally and physically by a parent. I have been neglected by the other. If it weren’t for my aunt and uncle I wouldn’t know what real parents should have been like. I don’t hold disdain for those who gave birth to me. I have resolve, that in the big picture, they dint know any better either. I choose not to be a victim of my past. I am strong. I am willful. I am not ashamed of either virtue.

There are many, who don’t understand me. Those that don’t understand me, don’t know me. Its ok, maybe in the next life…

I am who I am. A product of my environment. I am at peace with the world. I understand I cannot control it. I accept all that has happened for a reason. I know that there are reasons, I don’t understand yet; and maybe never will, that the things that have happened to me, for a reason.


I hold no contempt. I hold no pain. I hold no guilt. I am becoming free. Free from the world of pain and suffering. Free from a world of unfairness. I accept what God gives me. I accept life as it comes. I am positive, in the light of all that has been. I am proud of this virtue the most.

Go, be one with GOD…